User
In the last year I found myself doing things I wouldn't.
User: You are a nasty nasty girl!
Me: Thats how you talk to women?
User: Just girls like you.
I have over 300 subcribers to my onlyfans, I have over 200 subscribers to my livestream and I have been on over 100 dates with men who thought a benjiman was the ticket to win over a girls heart for the night.
I'm not swimming. It's kept me float at least. not floatys, Its more like a stick keeping me a float, filthy, disgusting maggot brained sticks.
Though Im not truly safe, I have been harassed and hurt and beat and left to dry.
Im liberated for sure but
Im tired. Im exhausted by the idea that my body is its used.
the users should be ashamed. The users should enjoy me and revel in tht shame afterwards.
I want a better life.
I want to reivent my nights.
My makeup shouldnt be running, I shouldnt be forced at every turn to feel empowered by my actions.
Im not disgusted by it, I have privileges from it.
But at what cost?
The body i have built for myself
isnt even mine to revel in
Men fuck it.
Men legislate it.
"authenticity is in low supply"
Im more me than everyone I know and still im not talking enough.
I've had it with self minimizing my experience
This sucks.
This fucking sucks.
I dont even like sex?