silly but true
i just want a fucking ring on my finger lmfao.
i want someone to look at me and say this is forever and actually mean it.
i want commitment, the kind that feels steady, the kind that makes a farm by the river make sense because weβll both be there taking care of it. i want to grow with flowers and a big old dog that comes with me in an old chevy truck, windows rolled down, fur in the wind, music on low. i want a house with stained glass windows so the sun can paint the walls and make the rooms glow. something blue...
i want my counseling career to be real and successful, not just survival, not just getting by. I want to feel far away from the past, not a haunting reminder or a nightmare to remind me how im stuck. i want to feel proud walking into my office every day knowing i worked for this. i want a wedding dress that is big and beautiful, the kind you feel like youβll float away in. I cant wait to spin in that one day (yipeee). i know for a fact i could fit into my momβs dress, but she would never let me. because im tr- because she canβt let go of her version of me. so iβll find my own dress, something thatβs mine, something that fits who i am. it could be designer...something new
i want chickens and ducks outside. i fucking love ducks. i want floors that creak under my feet, maybe itβs called chevron or or heminng idk, maybe iβm saying it wrong, i donβt even care, i just want that feeling of an old house with character. i want one of those old fridges, the heavy metal kind, the ones that hum like theyβre alive, and you have to shell ice out that shit, that make the whole kitchen feel like a different decade. like it should be something old...
and more than all of that i want someone to hold me. im knd of tired of falling in and out of love, and sleeping alone. i want love that stays, love that doesnβt pull away when it gets hard. Someone is healing too, i want someone who wants to help me be better but doesnβt need me to be perfect. i want a life that isnβt about grandeur, not about showing off or proving anything. i want bliss. everyday bliss. the kind that makes you wake up happy to be exactly where you are.
I am happy, i just know i deserve more , more than the bare minimum.
its generic,
its silly.
its true.
it should be at least 0.7 cts...
(im really good at manifesting