dignity for sale
Right now, is hard, I'm cast between the crash out and the cool down. No, I wouldn't expect this to be easier, but I can almost certainly imagine it will get worse. Sometimes the smaller aggressions set me off, I'm honest , my rebuke techniques are no where close to level headed. I'm a selfish bitch who selfishly defines, self worth and value through the way I exist.
Misgendering? that shit sucks, its not easy, to handle and often will send me into mental oblivion, over-analyzing features, that I've worked weeks to get used to. I can only ever feel at peace for 2 week increments.
its exhausting
I think disrespect or a reluctant respect are the same, I dont want your respect of necessity, I want it out of authenticity.
Whos being honest with me? whose a fucking liar?
Why does passing matter to me?
Why do pronouns matter to me?
Because they make my life easier.
My dignity is not for sale, because you fuck up.
Fuck you, do better.